Interest..rather the Loss of it...work sucks...

I dunno why.. but I've lost interest in work... I don't luv this job anymore.. Maybe it's time i get myself a change.. change of work.. change of atmosphere... Will a break work... i don't think so..


But why..? various reasons maybe... this job is no more challenging..neither physically nor intellectually... doesn't trouble my stupid brain anymore... the atmosphere here is gloomy.. Global recession... but my company is still doing well..though they are worst ever paymasters...maybe that's a reason..


Progress here is way too slow.. they always fall behind.. with me working at my pace.. i kinda work with the speed of thought flow.. these people come in a week.. no a month later... and to top all of it.. the management or the so called people who constitute the management have all gone insane... and way too much chaos around..


I need to go a long long way.... not this way... that's for sure.. I can't work like this anymore.. that passion.. that zest.. zeal to work here is no more there..

Am quitting..... Adios ....!!!!


Cheers..!
S

Happy Deepavali...!!!!

Just a couple of hours and it'll be yet another joyous day in India.... with the whole of the country getting together to celebrate the festival of Lights...
I don't quite understand the term "Diwali" which i guess is just a corrupted form of the word "Deepavali"...
Deepavali actually when split up is - deepasya aavali iti deepavali.. it actually in Sanskrit means a row/ pattern of lights...

Deepavali is one such day when our homes/lives is filled with goody goody stuff.... sweets.. new clothes.. crackers...near ones.. and sweet memories.... from the days i was a little kid till today.. i guess i have evolved with years....learnt with time and experience... and deepavali and the preparations onto deepavali teach you a lot...

I do not wish to take this post onto a sober note on a to- be beautiful day... ultimately what i feel is that deepavali is not just to light up our homes with diyas... it's more to light up or brighten somebody else's life every year.. year after year... how to get to that on a serious , full-fledged note.. i shall post some other time... but we can for sure contribute in small ways during these festivals..

Just to share somethings we can do on the run - up to deepavali...(at least i do)

1.Crackers are a total No- No.. i shall have nothing to do with child labour... crackers get in when there's not one single child involved in it's manufacture.

2.It's not just that we buy clothes only during deepavali.. we buy them all through the year..whenever we need them... But for deepavali, i've made it a point to buy atleast 1 Khadi shirt every year in support of the numerous SHG that manufacture them... that little amount i spend on one shirt goes to one small family and might feed them for just one day.. but still for them it counts so much.. and it's such a comfy wear for me every summer...

3.All the money i get from elders as aashirwaad during deepavali goes to support some noble cause... not necessarily for charity... Last year it went to "The trust".. lets see what happens this year...

4.A share of all savouries and sweets prepared in our home make their way to an old aged home nearby.. just to share our happiness with those elderly people deserted by their well -to-do sons and daughters...

5.The ration shops or the (UN)Fair price shops as they are called in Tamilnadu.. sell a lot of stuff... rice,sugar,wheat,palm oil,all kinds of dal,wheat flour,rava,jeera and what not.. We do not buy all of these..just the rice and sugar suffices our needs.. but since all the items are available at a much cheaper price than with other grocers, we make it a point to buy all of them and donate them away to whoever needs them.. out watchman .. servant maid... or just anybody..

I know these are very small things to me or us rather... but for others it makes such a huge difference in the way it helps them celebrate the festival.. for some others it may just give them a day's lively hood.. i don't even know if it will.. but still i wish , hope and pray it reaches out to someone in a small way... at least.... and that what Deepavali is all about.... making the world a better place to live .... bringing a smile onto people's faces...!!!! Lightening somebody's life...!!

Happy Deepavali..... Deepavali Nal-Vaazhthukkal.....!!!!

Cheers...!!
S

Got an Attitude... carry it off....

It was raining heavily out here in chennai yesterday.. and it still is... yesterday it was quite a heavy downpour.. i was stuck at this friend's place of mine and both of us were forced to take a bus to this place called "adayar" for some work...


so we got into this bus... buses in chennai have seats demarcated for men and women separately.. i guess it's the same everywhere.. so all seats in the men's side were taken.. and as there were no women standees, us and a couple of other males sat down on the women's section.. and in totality the bus was like exactly full... no vacant seats.. and nobody standing..


at an intermediate stop, two middle aged ladies boarded the bus.. we got up to offer them the seat before they could ask for.. for which they said they were comfortable standing... one of them gave us her bag to hold it for her.. so we were seated again...


so at the next stop , a girl.. she must have been in her late teens i guess... a college goer maybe.. even as the bus approached the stop.. she was staring at me and my friend.. so did it seem to both of us... her glare was something like.." you guys are using up the Ladies seat"...


so when she got into the bus.. both of us got up to give her the seat .. even as we were getting up.. this girl said//"ladies seat"....


we gave her her seat which was her birthright i know.. and we got the glare of our lifetimes in return... for having been seated in "her" seat till then.. we gave the other lady's bag back to them... they requested this girl to hold it for them..... and this girl retorted back.." not my bag"... and that was not very polite too i guess..


who cares whatever...me and my buddy were standing and chatting away on something else... the thing about bus conductors in chennai is that you need to go to them to buy yourself a ticket... conductors don't come to you..


So this girl took out a Rs.10 note, handing it over to the conductor, near whom we were standing.. and said "one velachery"...


now the funny part is velacherry was in the direction right opposite to where this bus would go... it's like a T junction where you take a left to adayar and a right to velacherry...so she was obviously in the wrong bus... the conductor said.." velachery pogadu ma".. meaning this bus doesn't go to velacherry...


she said" one checkpost then"... i giggled... everyone around was giggling... [ checkpost was a place enroute velacherry and was nowhere in the route of this bus again..!!]the conductor shouted back..." do you even know where this bus is going... you get into the bus at 7 in the morning and make my life hell,, this is 21 G "..


This was enough to feed words into my mouth... I commented generically.."bus la earum pozhudu... board ah pathu earanum.. ladies seat la yaaru ukkandirukkanu pathu eara koodadhu..." ... which transliterates as.. " board a bus looking at the board.. not looking at who's occupying the ladies seat"...


Everybody in the bus laughed... passengers , conductor and all... though i felt sorry for this poor girl who got onto a wrong bus on one hellova nasty rainy day... i know how tough it is ...


but if you've got this kind of an attitude... better learn to carry it off....!!!


and this girl was gotten out of the bus mid-way by the conductor... maybe she learnt her lesson the hard way..!!/


Cheers..!!
S

cooked up..!!!.. covered up..?????

4 college students were playing late into the night and didn't
study for a test which was scheduled for the next day.

In the morning they made a plan. They made themselves look as dirty with grease and dirt. They then went up to the Dean and said that they had gone out to a wedding the previous night and on their return the tyre of their car burst and they had to push the car all the way back and that they were in no condition to appear for the test.

So the Dean said they could have the re-test after 3 days. They thanked him and said they would be ready by that time.

On the day of the test they appeared before the Dean. The Dean said that as this
was a Special Condition Test, all four were required to sit in separate
classrooms for the test. They agreed as they had prepared well the
previous 3 days.

The Test consisted of 2 questions with a total of 100 Marks.

And the questions were.....

Q.1. Your Name........ ......... ......... (2 MARKS)



Q.2.. which tyre burst? (98 MARKS)
a) Front Left
b) Front Right
c) Rear Left
d) Rear Right.....!! !

True story from IIT Bombay ...Batch 1992

Source :Read from my mail and posted

Cheers..!!

S

on the beach.. a full moon night...and it's drizzling light...

It poured quite heavily this afternoon here in chennai... and was quite sunny in the evening wen i guess the clouds had decided to go home to rest after nearly 3 days of heavy rain..

As i walked home from work.. the full moon in the sky... made me want to go to the beach...
reaching home to just drop my lappy and freshen up...
i strolled my way to the beach... found a nice catamaran over the beachfront... made myself all comfy.. the waves kissing my feet everytime they rose to touch the shore... all alone... solitude s bliss... watching the odd light from a ship passing far away... close to the horizon...the light from the light house behind me doing the regular rounds extending upto sea..

Listening to the sound of the waves.. recollecting sweet memories.. memorable times spent at the beach.. wid buddies.. siblings... family.. other special people in life.. n wid myself...
totally lost track of time..

a sudden light drizzle adds to the flutter of the waves...brings me back to reality... i turn on my mobile to listen...to my favourite melodies.. sweet memories.. on the beach.. and the full moon in sight..... Romantic.... am feeling happy and light...

i walk my way home.. partially drenched... who cares... the last 2 hours were bliss...

Cheers...!!!

S

my path to self realisation.... part 2

So does this god answer prayers... does he give us what we ask for... why does he makes people suffer... yes.. If we're able to connect with this supreme force... it surely communicates with us.. He may not come out in the open and talk to you.. But we will be able to feel his presence... and about god granting us our wishes.... have we ever asked him something meaningful.... all we crave for is small nothings in this materialistic world... which when compared to the capabilities of the supreme sound way too insignificant.. like a pay hike.. a lottery prize... a wish to do well in something blah .. blah...

Why don't we ask something that makes some sense to him..... lolz... there is this saying that "god helps those who help themselves"... he's a guide who's always around... it has worked for me... many a times... more often 'am taught to fish.. rather than the fish being given in my hand. so that next time... I can just thank him for having me taught how to fish... same goes for everything from getting over grief... broken relations...failure...anger.. we need to learn to handle things,people and situations...



I ask Mr.X a favour which he promises to do.. but that 100 % faith in Mr.X isn’t there.. so I try some other means to get the same work done.. How does Mr.X feel when he gets to know of it..? let’s put ourselves in Mr.X’s shoes… do we like it when people don’t believe us completely… we lose interest in helping them.. don’t we….??? Same here..


When such undeterred faith we have in god, all.. I mean all our prayers are answered……..


this one incident struck me.. A couple in the apartment i lived gave birth to a child.. Paralyzed at birth... they nurtured him for two long years before he passed away.. they were people really good at heart.. god believing... sweet people... why should it happen to them.... and I was young then.. doing my 10th i guess... so when this came up for discussion in our adda a couple of years later... a person told me.. that child was born into that family b'coz god knew it would be taken care of.. come what may... those people would not spare any efforts. to bring it up like any other kid... what if the child had been born into some other family which left the kid at the doorstep of an orphanage...?

i'd suggest one small thing to all of you guys reading this... irrespective of whether you are a believer.. agnostic.. atheist... staunch follower of god.... that's personal to people... do once in a while make your way to an orphanage.. an old aged home.. or a home for the disabled.... a spastic society...you do not have to carry cash or stuff to go there.. u can just go and help them out physically.. jus visit one with an open mind... of just looking around.... i bet anything on this god damned world... it'll change ur life forever... it'll change the perception of how you look at life... it definitely did change mine...


coming to think of why there's evil in this world... I've been born near to perfect rather perfect i shud say.. i have no disabilities; all my sensory organs work fine.. am perfectly hale and very much healthy... why are some people on earth born deaf ,dumb, blind... or others wid some sort of chronic illnesses... there ate two views about this... why them... and why not me...

why them.. for me to learn from…
why not me.. to help such people out… sounds nice …. and what do we gain out of it.. self satisfaction.. that feeling of happiness,bliss ...

So now can this god be omnipresent...... for all those who've been in love or been loved... by anybody whatsoever... when you are in a relationship.. however far your partner might be physically, don't you feel his/her presence with you/within you all the time... we seem to communicate to the other person without any physical/technological medium.... that's because there is this connection that makes it happen...what is this connection made of.. faith,trust,love and respect..sounds like telepathy....?? maybe... and if that sorta understanding doesn't exist in a relation.. take it from me.. it's nuthing more than a crush...

Now let’s leave alone all that.. when we are able to continuously feel the presence of a human .. within us... more like omnipresent... why not god...? hmm... beacuse we don't think about all these stuff... and we don't even bother to listen.. so if the presence of a human can be felt everywhere... there's no question about not applying the same to god...


One other bad habit of people who believe in him... we turn to him only in times of distress..when nothing goes our way.. we pray.. why on earth don't we thank him when everything goes fine... say a silent prayer then again... we have this dinner at a very posh restaurant.. pay a huge bill and when you come out.. a beggar asks you for alms... we either walk away or toss him a coin... do we bother to thank god for that morsel of food that we just had... which this poor beggar can't afford...??>??


All this disparity has been created to make us count our blessings and realise the true mission for which we've been born.... not just to eat.. sleep.. drink.. dance ... and make merry.. all these can be part of life.. not the goal in life..

we humans with this 6th sense that helps us think..[ and think way too crooked most of the times, which i what i guess i do] never realize the worth of anything unless it is absent… worth of shade s not realized unless there is this sun beating down upon us... the worth of water unless there is thirst... food unless there is hunger... love unless there is hatred...generosity unless there is miserliness.... and so on... same goes for heat and cold, darkness and light,

so for us to realize the worth of the creation of the supreme creator, these qualities have also been created by him... what is that feeling that goes thru us wen we see a child smile... why do we feel great wen we'r showered with love....we do smile on getting to eat our fav ice cream...
in days when people[read lay man] needed to be taken to god.. a belief of god needed to be instilled, maybe man created this concept of heaven and hell... good and sin... which i guess worked... man does things either out of interest or out of fear... :)

this approach isn't for people who understand and not for atheists anyway.. they’re way ahead of all of us... 'coz they put their brain to use... they’re not dumb like me to believe in god and religion just because they were born into Hinduism/Christianity/Islam/any other religion for that matter.... and these beliefs were sown into me without choice.. though i don't regret it today...to say the truth...

To all you atheists out there, you guys are well ahead of all of us who believe in god.. since you believe in yourselves , persistence, hard work and do not feel the need for this god, you guys need to discover the real “you” .. that’s what you guys believe in anyway……. Don’t u guys waste ur time in probing into these beliefs.. atheist or theists, the goal is self realization…. You guys have already bye-passed all these paths we need to take.. to reach the real goal… in life.. just get there…

To those who don’t believe in god…. Cheers… god believes in you.. realize yourself..
To those who don’t need god, you were created for a certain reason.. and god does not come to you directly.. he manifests himself in various forms… which is not realized/recognized…

My biggest learning….. “There’s always a theist in an atheist”….

Others in search of the self... watch out for more…. At some later point of time..

Cheers..!!!
S

concluded......[as of now...]

my path to self realisation...... part 1

To all those who believe in god....those who don't..(include those who don't feel the need for god).. those out to discover god.. and those on the path to self realisation...!! experiences of probing into the essence of the cause of why one is born.... lives and dies.... and beyond.....

Though the idea of god,rituals,prayers were ploughed into me at a very young age.. an age very young to question things... when my stupid brain started thinking on it's own.. things began to turn a different way... lots n lots n lots of question.. many unanswered till date.. a few answered.. led to arguements n debates.. which got me nowhere or rather progress was too very slow...

So now am on a diff path of analysing things and it's helping me so far..

reason this post is out here.. one of my good buddies turned a atheist.. (congrats!!!)..... n i was discussing what an atheist's view was .... god... who..? why..? how...? howcome? necessary....? bullshit... n all these stuff.... guess i've been thru these questions.. and mayb i cud just post my learning..

.... err.. so who's this god... can we define god.... No we can't... an exact definition of god can never be given... one of the learned people i asked this question shot back a question @ me...
"what is a line ?"
what is a line..sounds dumb right.. for a person who's done Engg. .. so here i was defining a line..."it's the locus of points..which starts with a point and ends with another point.. with a straight curve...and is uni-dimentional".. pat came the next question.. "define a point..".... i had no answers...(all i remember telling him was it was 0 dimensional)
i had to go back to my basics of geometry to search for answers... and i found none properly satisfying.... definition of a point is an axiom which needs to be accepted.. without which all theorems would fail.. so i shud say... maths assumes the entity of a point for all practical purposes....we can only describe the nature of a point... but not the point in itself...
Similarly i learnt we can describe the nature of divinity..or god whatever.. but cannot define him in finite terms...

is god the faith that people have in him...? yes..no.. maybe... faith is something that is inborn in each and every living being..a child has faith in it's mother.. a pet in it's master... a patient in d doc...passengers in d driver.. so on n so forth.. so there's no denying the presence of faith... but y faith in god..? after all all people are human.. and if humans could control everything.. they'd really be super powerful right..?

so is this god super powerful..let's consider the universe.. who created it... if the big bang theory created it.. then who created the big bang theory... which in turn led to the chain reaction of creating it's smaller entities by itself...? the atmosphere.. galaxies... planets.. their orbits... the extent of the atmosphere wherein it holds the gases that sustain us.. why is the earth not any closer to the sun.. where it would have got all d water on earth evaporated.. or any farther where all heat and light would have ceased, and water frozen... there are things natural to us... so we call them part of nature... but the architect behind this... who'z tat...

consider the 5 elements of nature.. colorless,odourless water...a necessity for any living organism...air with d right composition of hydrogen,oxygen nitrogen ..CO2 and other gases,rocks(earth) which contain the minerals required to sustain vegetation...fire... that provides heat and light.... and the absence of all these.. vacuum... these were discovered by man.. but created by some supreme creator....

some supreme creator also created this biological body of ours... a brain that can process a million thoughts per second.... a body with blood vessels whose total length put together is close to 35 Km...a heart that sustains this body thruout...all the other systems.. respiratory.. excretory.. reproductive n stuff... bio mechanics...bones.. joints.. tendons and ligaments that support 'em.. which stand our body weight and much more...

Mind you.. all these were created by that supreme creator... not just for man... for all the supposed 84000,00,00,000 living organisms.. right from an amoeba to a mammoth... so how small would the heart of an ant look.. how does it work....? doesn't it not have a mechanism of it's own..?? is man capable of creating the same....

surprisingly these 84000,00,00,000 organism's reproductive cycle is classified into just 4 types... all this is scientific proof ok......
1.those that give birth/reproduce by seeds sown into the soil
2.those non-vertebrae like worms,lizards .. and their reproductive ways..
3.those that reproduce by laying eggs
4.the ones which give birth by gestation of the new born in a womb....

i tried to find something outside these four.. just for argument's sake.. to no avail...

As lord kelvin once cited that the more longer and deeper he delved into science he could not help but admire the creations of the supreme.. which went beyond the purview of scientific explanation..!!!!

god is thus the supreme creator,a supernatural power..which cannot be explained.... but what of his qualities... he's omnipotent, being the supreme creator.. he'd be knowing everything.. so he'd be omniscient..( i do not wish to bring omnipresent into the picture here.. 'coz that's realisation of the self)... he transcends knowledge....

now to the other qualities attributed to god... all of us have a basic sense of right or wrong.. or morality in other words... all qualities attributed to morality... kindness,generosity,righteousness etc etc... are attributed to him... as all religions prescribe these values as the way of the world.. so thus he's also credited with omnibenevolence.....
we do not have to believe in sin .. hell or heaven to be morally right..right?

To be contd...

P.S:Will get back after dinner tonight.. or tomorrow probllly....
Cheers!!
S

what does not sport teach......

i've been associated wid sports.. rather shud i say.. various sports wer kind enuf to associate themselves wid me for d past 12 years... n god bless.. my body was n still s pretty much fit n in shape to allow me to continue playin till now.. touch wood.. :)


volleyball,basketball,TT,cricket,athletics,badminton n chess to name 'em.. are the ones which i've been into.. n in a few of them, i'm still "in" in various capacities other than playin too.... at a slightly professional level ..


when i started out playing... i was an admirer of team games... they teach u a lott more than d individual events...they bring out the true character in you... teach u to be together,work as a team,help u strengthen ur will-power,u learn to sacrifice.. teach u to handle pressure.. u learn to share.. give n take.. n u learn to handle diff people... u learn to enjoy success n brave defeat.. look at a challenge right in d eye... u learn to be unafraid.... u learn to be happy for others doing well.... u cry together when u lose... only to come back stronger.. together.. to get back to winning ways...


what prompted me to write this post .. is again an incident.... a 16 year old's parent...in an under-16 cricket match.. advicing his son... to play for himself... be selfish n not care about the team 'coz it was his performance that'll get him to d state team.... wen this came from a parent.. shocked d hell outta me..... n the outcome was such that,this kid ran out 3 other players in that game of cric... n he did no good to himself too....scored a paltry 33 as he ran outta partners.. he he... was goes around.. come around....

we had never thot about all these thing wen we were that age,... all we wanted to do.. was to win.... n wer were my/our parents.. sitting @ home... nobody bothered to even ask me how i played on a particular day.... so it's eventually the parents who sow these seeds of selfishness into these kids... i wouldn't believe that a 16 yr old kid can be this cunningly selfish....


to hell wid these people.. next tym there's a kid to be coached... it's d parents who'r gonna be interviewed... so beware..!!!!!


Cheers..!!!
S

Differently-abled..... ????

Every morning... on my way to work.. i walk something around 3 Km... which is d distance between home n office.... i start early.. walk at my own pace... enjoyin n observing people n stuff around me.....people racing against time .. to get to work... the metro trains... children on their way to school... restaurants buzzing with activity .... the odd cow drawn cart.. the cobbler spreading out his tools.. expecting business for d day...from sum1 like me who walks by....

it was sometime back.. long back i guess...3-4 months ago.. i saw this Blind person... i'd rather call him a person with a third eye.... lets call him DA... ok... walking slowly.. slower than me... with his stick or whatever.... u call it.. i dunno the name.... on the same way to my office....
dunno wat came about me.. i just offered to help him on his way..... so here was i.. escorting DA to wherever he intented to go.... n left him somewhere he wanted to go... that was that....
we didn't exchange words.. not even 1.. other than the place wer he was going and a heartfelt "thanks" from him....

i had totally forgotten abt this incident... wen this monday.. i happened to see this person..another third eyed.. i didn't even recognize his face... so dumb of me... when i offered to help him.. his happily agreed.... i held his hand... and we had just taken a few steps together when he stopped.... turned as if to look at me n said .. "sir.. have you helped be once before...?"
i was like"err.. i don remember..."
he shot back at me saying.. "i know u've helped me out before.. i can feel ur hand... it's d same..... mayb u don't recollect me..."...

i was dumfound.... neverthless i asked him where he was going when he said"just hold my hand sir.. i'll tell u d directions"..we started walking again...i let myself be guided by this person to a common junction..where we parted ways... and i reached office... that whole morning.. i couldn't concentrate on work.. coming to think of this incident... can sumone who just held my hand for 10 mins.. 4 months ago... recognize me...? just by touch...

what is this guy... Blind.... No way........!! i don't think he considers the fact that he can't see as a disability.. i won't b able to recognize someone lik tattt... will i b able to tell a Rs.100 note from a Rs.500 note.. blindfolded... No way..... But i guess he can ....
I admire the sheer will power of these people to take on life.....!!!! It's just child's play for them....

and what am i cribbing for in life haan..... i need no goddamn reason to crib.. i just need to be grateful to lord almighty for all the good things in life...!!! Dhanyosmi....!!!

Cheers..!!
S

good writers... they're a rare breed...

i've 8 unfinished posts..various topics... saved drafts.. that i need to get done wid n publish... but these random thoughts take up priority to be posted first..i guess.. so i still got more time to work on ma unfinished posts.. :-)

so here i was taking to this one helluva amazingly good writer [ read OHAGW]... on what it takes to become a good writer.... we were actually xchanging these views... n OHAGW had to leave d conversation half way thru ...

after OHAGW left... i was lik thinking what actually makes a writer good.... what makes me go back to a writer for more.... what extra does this good writer give his readers..... am not talking about writers who actually write only on one topic or vertical....
thinking of it generically.. a good writer's writing must make a reader think....

to make d reader who's a layman lyk me.. think.. and stimulate my kinda dumb brain intellectually.... the writer's gotta think... think matured thoughts.... intellectual maturity.. n this comes about with age.... and the kinda company that u maintain.... the ppl around ... and a good writer matures early.. than the others...

a good writer(GW henceforth) has to hav versatility... by saying that i mean.. he's gotta know alleast somethin abt anythin under the sun... and this versatility cannot be achieved by xperience or over tym... it comes again by reading.. reading lots.. reading loads.. reading about various stuff... various topics... understandin n analysing 'em.. So wen ya read lyk 100 times,mayb a 1000..more than wat u write... u achieve tat refinement of thought...

and not to mention d talent 2 write.. that flair.. that inborn somethin which enables one to write n connect wid ppl... to ezplain a one liner over a page n vice-versa.... n not having to search for words to do it..that flow...inborn talent.. that's somethin that comes to a person from ABOVE....!!!!!

so read.. ponder.. understand... analyse... think... connect thoughts wid other stuff... putting it down in simple manner... does d trick ...

n wer was i.. yeah OHAGW.. was tellin me that there's no constructive criticism coming around.... n that theirs truly was not the best writer around among peers...
Buddy.... i dunno wat ur intentions are... if ur writing for passion or for a noble prize... i guess it's d former...at such a young age as that of urs... wid the whole world ahead... u jus gotta understand.. ur competing wid nobody other than ur own self... u jus need to better urself.... each tym.. every time.. that's competetion...if you're able to read whatever u've written.. a 1000 times over.. n enjoy it each time u read it.. get that smile on ur face...n don't get sick of it... ur there...!!!

u've got urself that inborn talent from above.. versatility n maturity s what u've gotta develop... u need some kinda mentoring.. not very sure how exactly to go abt gettin tat... maturity will happen over time... hang on till then.. n to make that happen early is for which u need to mak tat extra effort..

i ain't part of tat crowd which praises u all d way.. but knw wat.. criticism right from d word go.. n ppl tend to show off an attitude towards such criticism.... so u always tell ppl all that's good abt 'em.. before telling them wer they've gotta put in some extra bit of effort.. which areas to work on.. take it frm me.. it works.. try it out..good luck to u.....!!!

i knw OHAGW doesn't have access to my blog and doesn't read it... n some day wen tat happens.. if at all it happens... these are just my views...not wat the world thinks... i can't opinionate on behalf or the world na...

i don't even know if am fit or qualified enuf to talk d above stuff... jus that these thoughts come up n i type 'em down before they pass away... i can't hold on2 thoughts u c...
thoughts come.. thoughts go.... am i d thought ?????? nopseeee..... what am i then... wat r these thoughts.. needs some self retrospection i guess.... :-?

Cheers..!!!!
S

loved ones....

people whom we miss d most wen they're not around.. r d people we love most...

and today i happened to spend 5 n a half hours.. and that 330 minutes exact with sum1 very dear to me...


coming to recall all the emotions that went thru us in this very short time..
we hugged..smiled..laughed..blabbered.. called each other names.... cajoled...pulled each other's leg.recalled past memories..... argued.. fought.. stopped talkin 4 a small while...got back together...hit each other..(for having fought in the first place) and fought again... laughed again..hogged together.. ran together.. raced against time....had an adventure....
and at last had moist eyes while we parted...


even thou we know we're gonna get back together next week to spend puja hols together @ home.. but still... all this happens..


guess that's what happens wen siblings get back together after a loooooooooooong loooooooog while... :-)


S

stoopid,insane stuff.. i don't care a damn...

Was going thru all d old mails from long back..deleting unwanted mail.. archiving needed ones when I chanced upon this mail written by me way back..may be a couple of years ago…

Way back then.. I was fresh outta college,looking out for a job in my area of interest(read AOI)…( I had turned down a handful of lucrative offers in IT coz it never appealed to me one bit.. sittin infront of a comp whole day.. sucks…. Atleast to me.. I can talk 2 people.. write…but I can’t interact with a machine which doesn’t bother to reciprocrate…: ) ..

Campus placements were fullov IT companies(No core companies.. not even 1 )…I took ‘em jus for d heck of it… getting selected n turning these offers down used to be the order of the day..

So I happened to see this Ad in a daily and sent my resume over to this one company in my AOI,for which they asked me to attend a training on my own cost… this stupid mail of theirs went straight to my trash…

Around 5 months later.. I had the same hellova company….callin me down to attend a seminar and tak up d same training programme .. where I was asked to pay again…

The transcript of the mails is out here 2 read..
This is the mail from the company:

Dear Mr.XYZ(that’s Me)
Sub: Training cum placement

This has reference to your biodata sent to us for a suitable job in our organization. As you are a fresh / inexperienced candidate we can take you for employment only after you undergo a training with us. Details of the trainin are as under…

TRAINING DETAILS FOR INDIVIDUAL CANDIDATES
BATCH – XI

The training period is ONE YEAR (TWO PARTS)
PART – A

TWO Months FULL TIME in house training at our Premises - 6 Days in a week (Mon to Sat) from 9.30 am to 5.00 pm with lunch & tea breaks

PART – B
TEN Months “ON JOB TRAINING” in our on going Project Sites anywhere in India.

Around 300 HOURS OF INTENSIVE TRAINING including HANDS ON PRACTICAL TRAINING ON (THE FULL SYLLABUS OF ENGG. THAT I’VE BEEN THRU LAST 4 YEARS)
SCHEME – I (INDIVIDUAL CANDIDATES)
POINTS TO BE NOTED

¯ In House Training
During the in house training the expenses towards accommodation, food and local Conveyance has to be taken care by the student.

¯ On Job Training
After the completion of two months IN HOUSE TRAINING the Candidates are arranged to attend the `On Job Training’ in our Project Sites – anywhere in India.

¯ Benefits

Ø Please note that during the ten months “On Job Training”, the candidate will be paid Rs. 5,500/- EVERY MONTH as follows:

Stipend - Rs. 2000/-
Site Allowance - Rs. 3500/-
Ø Provident Fund – Trainee will be made member of PF at the time of deputation for on job Training.

Ø On the stipend amount of Rs. 2000/- an amount of Rs. 240/- (12%) will be deducted and an equal amount will be contributed by the Company and total amount of Rs. 480/- will be remitted to the individual’s PF account. An individual who continues to be a member of PF for 10 years will become eligible for family pension scheme.

Ø 8.33% of the Stipend amount paid during the previous calendar year will be paid as bonus before Deepavali festival every year.

Ø Attendance Incentive will be paid along with the Stipend to such of those Trainees who have not taken leave during a particular month.

Ø If a Trainee happened to work on weekly holidays / festival and national holidays he can avail Compensatory Off during the same month or will be paid one day Stipend.

Ø Trainees will be provided free shared accommodation and local conveyance (from place of stay to work place) project sites as applicable to our Team Members. However Trainees have to bear food expenses and wherever mess facilities are available they can take food and share the expenses on dividing system.

During the “On Job Training”, you have the liberty to try for any job on your own. However, if any candidate leaves us during this training period for his betterment, he will NOT be eligible for any further stipend. Moreover you have to give atleast two weeks notice to the management to avoid the sudden disturbance in the project work. If you complete the full training, we will absorb the candidates in regular roles.

The candidate has to strictly adhere the attendance during `On Job Training’.Any leave is considered as `loss of stipend’ leave only.
COURSE FEES
Registration Fees (Rs.) 5000/-

1st installment(Rs)35,000/-

2nd installment(Rs)35,000/-

Total Fees(Rs)75,000/-

One time Payment Fees(Rs)72,500/-

The above fees is inclusive of Registration Fees, Admission Fees, Tuition Fees, Examination Fees, Lab/Practical Training facilities, Course Materials, Visiting Lecture Fees, Stationeries, etc.,

OUR NEXT TRAINING BATCH (XI) STARTS BY **/**/****
“ONLY LIMITED SEATS”
Those who are interested to have their career in instrumentation can join this training program. Please collect the application form with details from HR dept. by paying Rs.50/-

NOTE : The amount can be sent through post / courier by means of a demand draft in the name of “!@#%^$*&*,” , payable at ($&*^$%($&.

My reply to them....

Dear Mr.%^$($)$)$),

Kindly view the attachment below sent to me by your company. I hope you are aware of the fee structure charged by you for the two month training period.

Do u think by charging such exhorbitant rates your firm will be able to teach and impart training in the same syllabus that an engineer has learnt in 4 years of an engineering course within a short span of just 2 months...?

I'm sorry..I beg to differ..

and after the initial training period the emolument paid to an engineer is just Rs.5.5 k? don't u think you are just exploiting fresh engineers.....? atleast engineers who have undergone training for two long months in your company where they learn what they could not in 4 years while they were in college deserve more than just 5.5 k...?dont u think so?

i treat this as a good way of making money adopted by ur company..collecting fee from d candidate and paying him twelve months salary from his own money...it would be better if your company kept away from sending such emails viewed just as crap by most who just delete it.....and i pity those who are mislead by your mails and finally join you... atleast please don't contact me with such offers in future...

it would do a world of good 2 your company to offer an enginner a job rather than trying to get the same amount of money(Rs.75 K) which is the coll fee for full four year course.....

Hope not to hear from you with such dumb offers in future....,

Thanks for spending your precious time to read my email...

regards,
S
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and i haven't heard from them since then.. problly they've already spammed my mail id.. good for me i guess.... rofl...

i really dunno whatt sparked me to write back such a mail then.. but that's how i am... i can be cutthroat n ruthless when such way too stoopid things crop up in front of me... may it's jus a piece of my mind....

all ya freshers outta coll... tak it from me.. it ain't worth to work in a job lyk tat... and all ya other ppl readin this.. come back for more .... :-)